Source 9  Presence, To Be Present

•   Vulnerability

.».  Opening
     Vulnerability and Gratitude are two Topics you may come back to frequently.  Where some of the Topics are about you working through that particular issue the aforementioned will help you continue to move forward.  By being vulnerable by expressing your gratitude you open up (space) to the Universe.  It is tremendous vulnerability to be worthy (acknowledge your worth).  Worth is about your vulnerability to God… vulnerability and presence are one.

.».  To Practice
» This is my vulnerable act.
       You can declare this and then do an be that act (S5. Action).  So create the act then do and be it (S1.Do Be Create).  Ultimately the act is your life and transitions from a single moment to being your life living vulnerably (S7. Living Meditation).
       Artists who share their work could be seen as performing a vulnerable act.  Possibly you have a new recipe, cooking for others is an example too.  Especially when without expectation (S2. Expectations).  In a sense getting out of bed in the morning is a vulnerable act.  Putting yourself out in the world takes a degree of vulnerability.  The more intentional (S1. Intention) the vulnerability is the more you transition from failures and lessons to thriving…
       Note:  I had some digestive stuff and found it difficult to go ask for help.  Finally I’d had enough yes but also I realized to open to vulnerability, to ask for help.  Thus my vulnerable act.
       Eating slowly and purposely could be your vulnerable act.  This could look like putting down your phone for 4 minutes, shutting off the tv and simply eating those last few bites of your meal purposely.

» What is my intention for (this) fear of being vulnerable?
       To protect yourself from… this is the opposite of vulnerability.  The ego needs control, being vulnerable releases the need for the ego freeing yourself.
        Note:  For me to create (and share) this work has been a vulnerable act.  I wasn’t a writer, writing has made me uncomfortable until I learn otherwise somewhat through vulnerability.
       This question “what is my intention for …” can be added in to many of the Practice Exercises.  You can’t nonchalantly answer this question, it almost requires you to contemplate (E1. Expressions) the question and your life…  We use this question in other Topics for instance Judgement and Anger (what is your intention for anger).

.».  Expressions
Presence:
» Vulnerability and presence are one.
       Being vulnerable happens in the present moment (only).
» Vulnerability with time is the ultimate act of presence.
       Can you feel that?  In the realization of this Expression can you feel yourself unclenching, letting go, relaxing into the reality of the present moment.  This feeling is to commit your movements to time (the present moment). 
       Note:  When you feel the need to distract from the present moment (look at your phone, look again…) that is the opposite of being vulnerable with time.  Looking at your phone to look (not distract) is different.  Know that rushing, being nervous and fidgeting are the opposite of being vulnerable with time and are non presence.
       From (S4. Love) Love time, this is the (ultimate) act of presence.  So both are the ultimate?  Is it that love and vulnerability go hand and hand much like a wonderful relationship where you walk hand in hand?

Strength:
» Vulnerability and strength are one.
       Then is vulnerability connection?
       + No, connection is connection.  Through your will (S11. Your Will) you receive strength, your will to receive the strength (S6. Strength).
» Will you be strong enough to be vulnerable.
       No matter what.  Receiving (S4. Receiving) also contains info regarding strength and vulnerability.
» Vulnerability is strength.
       Being vulnerable is being strong.
» Let your vulnerability be your strength.
       Note:  I’m not afraid, I can do this.  The block is typically worthy (believing you are unworthy).
» It takes tremendous vulnerability to be happy.
» They (S2. Them) will see it (your vulnerability) as weakness.
       No need to judge them for this, allow them to be as they are, this is a vulnerable act.  They may try to exploit your vulnerability as if it’s you being naive (S2. Naive) allow your strength to guide you beyond their fear (attempts at exploitation).
» The work brings out a certain vulnerability which at first you may see as weakness.
       The prayers of protection (S8. Prayer of Protection) and need (S8. Prayer of Need) can help along this part of the journey.  Restless sleep is one possible indicator.

Living through it all:
» Vulnerability is to put yourself out there, be rejected and say thank you (in gratitude).  See how thank you (for the opportunity) is different than please as in “please give me another chance” (E1. Unnecessary Declarations).
       To me this is the same as knowing (S4. To Know).  When you know rejection is not a no rather a step forward towards becoming you.  A no from the person or situation but a yes to life (living).
» When vulnerable you don’t need (to regret).
» Live through all of it.
       Just keep living through it all.  Fail, go, fail, go, go…  This is to express your vulnerability.  The easiest path is to fail and hide.  To get back up takes strength but also vulnerability, allowing yourself to be vulnerable to failure.
       Note: We are taught to put up walls to protect ourselves from failure.  Living this way we end up doing only the things we “100% sure” will accomplish.  This limits life and what is possible.  Some of that protection is good and some is limiting, you know…
» The idea that my life could actually change?  
       + It already is, has (changed).
       Rather than a far off dream, your life is here now.  Settle into the idea now is your life.  That doesn’t mean you are to accept it will not change, it simply means right now is your life.  It may not feel like the life you are to live going forward, yet this is your life and where ever you go, how ever you are will be your life (too).  This is the premise of presence (S9. Presence).  As you stop fighting the present moment (your present life) you open the space for change.  Rather than the focus on what you don’t like about your current life you settle into now and embrace moving forward, this takes vulnerability.
       Note:  I had the notion that embracing the idea that my life could change takes vulnerability.
» Vulnerability is different than risking.
       You express your vulnerability, you feel vulnerability, you take a risk.
» Vulnerability is putting yourself out there and being ok with the result.  Success or failure, failure or success.  In other words the intention of vulnerability (in a act) is not success or failure, the intention of vulnerability is to live (freely), to experience life, to embrace living.
       One situation made me laugh, yes.  Another situation made me cry, yes.  Vulnerability is to live through all of it (S4. Feel Through It All).  In time you see the situation didn’t make you this or that (laugh or cry).  How you react is your choice (S10. Choice).
» A willingness to be vulnerable… is to release fear.
       Fail, feel like a failure equals failure and the fear persists.
       Fail, recognize you were vulnerable equals success.
       In some situations you may notice you were somewhat vulnerable, somewhat successful.  As one grows (vulnerability) so too the other (success)…
» Be vulnerable with life.
       With your life, through your life.  Life is this precious gift yet not meant to be stored in a box.  We are meant to be out in the world living.  For each of us that looks different.  Working on your beautiful home could be your out in the world.
       Note:  I can remember going over to a friends apartment and she had put so much love and energy into her space, for others it’s travel, some it’s bowling… vulnerability through it all.
       An example of a vulnerable act could be to invite others over to your home, knowing they may judge you, have an opinion of the work you have done.
 
Connection:
» Vulnerability is to share your love (openly, freely).
» When you live centered and connected to Source you can live vulnerably.
» Afraid of love… vulnerability.
       As in vulnerability is the answer.  Could the answer be the question, afraid of love, afraid of vulnerability?  Overcome the fear of being vulnerable, be love(ed).  
» Recognize the power in being vulnerable as the path to love.  
       Is true vulnerability.
» Vulnerability is faith.
       Is your living through faith (S10. Faith).  In the Practice the word through carries a certain energy.  There is no way out (of life) only through.  So your path through life is vulnerability.
» Vulnerability when from the heart is a complete action.
       (S5. Action).
» Vulnerability is allowing yourself to dream and believing it will come true.
       Notice both parts of the Expression.  When you feel it into reality (S5. Emotions) you take the step beyond vulnerability and Know.
» Vulnerability (is) to believe (feel) you deserve love, health, abundance, joy, happiness, wealth.
       Connects with being worthy (S4. Worthy), acknowledge your worth and receive.
» Vulnerability is to truly be seen, be heard, be felt.
       + To be vulnerable you live your truth.
       + To be vulnerable is to share your energy, freely.
       As you work through more of the Topics you will see how your energy is recharged through your connection, relationships, strength and compassion.  Trust (S10. Trust) that the energy will come and you will share (it) freely.

.».  Examples
       It takes a certain vulnerability to eat slowly and consciously.  Vulnerability is the destroyer of guilt.  Sometimes too simply going to bed early takes vulnerability.  

       You might apply for a job out of your “league” if you will and get rejected.  When the response is “yeah not doing that again” then vulnerability has been abandoned.  It’s not so nice to be rejected, one response is to calculate your odds to only take risks with a greater chance.  As you become stronger you will not feel the rejection as negatively and go for it more (be more vulnerable).  It all works together too: You do (and be) the work, become stronger put yourself out there more (which may include more rejection).  It may take 50 times (plus adjustments) before success… without vulnerability (and strength) you give up after 5 times, 10 times, 25 times…  Knowing yourself leads to the difference between giving up and choosing to change (adjust).

       Say for instance even though running late (you) hold the door for the person behind you.  This is to realize your life is bigger than the situation (running late) but not bigger than the (present) moment.  The Universe rewards this kind of vulnerable behaviour, possibly their smile of gratitude calms you down amidst your rushing.  You don’t plan this behaviour, you do (and be) the work and become this vulnerable act, vulnerability with time (as an act).

.».  Summary
Vulnerability becomes faith when you act independent of attaching to the outcome to define you.

(S9. Vulnerability)  © 2023 Busacca